Well, hello sir we look for Monday.

I kinda want a blogskin, but it's too much of a trouble. So here, I changed the template and it looks rather neat and pretty to me :D

Dreaming out loud, dreaming out loud.
-forever hidden under the abstractions of the rubik's cube-
I'm the king of the world.
-counting golden promises that melt away under my shaky, timid laughter-
Storm tries to come and wreck my words.
-I just need a lightning (splinters of a lava lamp)-

Well, hello sir, we look for Monday.
-my favourite lines always have to end with a slight twist to it.-


This is why I'm a Onerepublic fan and not a Direction((less?)) fan.

It's like wry and ironic, so mysterious, like the Cheshire cat.

Onerepublic writes their own songs. Beat that, peeps.

I love love love love love this band :D

Project Steampunk on the way!


Well, hello sir, we sleep on Monday. 
-indeed, I'm not looking forward to LA SIA story telling. BT2 was just over...-

I'm a huge idiot.

I'm just grinning, still grinning. And it's really weird. :D

In my parent's room, where Dad is still snoring away and I has managed to complete the Japanese homework.

This is awesome. It's the truth--those words are still pounding in my head.

EILUN AND JERNANA ARE AWAKE.

AWAKE.

CRAZY PEOPLE.

LIKE ME.

CRAZY PEOPLE LIKE ME AWAKE.

This is bliss.

I don't know why, but I just feel so awesome. And so idiotic at the same time.
I miss all of you too :D

It's 2 in the morning, last day of hols. Sad, sad, sad. But there'll be school. And CCA.

CCA is my second family. Even school can't beat that. Even though I keep complaining about CCA, there's a part of me that'll forever think, "Hell yeah, we're awepic. We're unique, a crazy bunch of weirdos who fit together."

Even though sometimes CCA is tough and all that crap or bullshit, it's still so fun and happy. Despite all the people that make me go haywire inside and there's loads of chunks of wtf messages around my brain (we should research it one day), they make me feel complete, like I have the right to be crazy.

I'm listening to Onerepublic's "Come Home" and it makes me want to cry. Remembering all the times in P6, all those secret moments of fangirling and pretending to be someone else. I think I carried on the calm facade just because it was who I was in school.

So, come home, come home, come home.


I want to go home. I miss CCA. But I remind myself that I'm already home, in my heart.

I'm home.

NYES. I love you. :D

Clarissa
Eilun
Jerlyn
YanYan
Megan
Isabel
WuFan

Crazy ES batch of 2012. :D

I love you all so much. I really do.

Even I don't feel this much for my class (TRAITOR!!!!).

Maybe I'm just dreaming out loud.
Until then.
Come home.
Come home.
Come home.

LOVE LOVE LOVE

:D 

More shuffle quizzes and a touch of fanvirus :D

I'mma following Clarinet's post :D

Credits to whoever who created this template thingy :D



1. First song is my overall theme song
If I Die Young-- The Band Perry.
Uhh.... EARLY DEATH! *le gasp* But it's a nice song and it's based on an awesome poem. So I don't mind~! Now I get an excuse to buy more satin~ Ooh, silky fabric. :D


2. Second Song plays when I see my friends
Tell Your World-- Hatsune Miku. 
ZOMB. I LOVE THIS SONG :D ... am I thanking them for making me... me...? T.T 


3. Third is the wedding song
Stereo Hearts-- Gym Class Heroes.
 ... Ooh, kinky. >:D Lol, but seriously though. D'awww. The meaning is rather sweet... in a curt way. :D


4. Fourth is my travelling song while camping
(AN: LET'S GET DORA THE EXPLORER'S THEME SONG!) Karakuri Pierrot-- Hatsune Miku. D'awww, what a sweet--wait. It's such a sad song. IT MAKES NO SENSE! Hey, that means that I'm actually a puppet played by some unknown person. *le gasp* I get it! I has been used by some random unknown faceless guy! *le gasp*... KILL HIM~


5. Fifth is what plays when I destroy a horcrux
Just A Kiss-- Lady Antebellum. 
... 
Uh. So I'mma kiss the horcrux before I kill it? (Because "Saying Goodnight" can mean saying farewells to a deceased/or someone who's gonna get killed) EWW NO. What if it's like Voldy--with hairy legs? XD *inside joke*


6. Sixth is the alarm that sounds when I enter hogsmeade
Party Rock Anthem-- LMFAO Feat. Lauren Bennett and Goon Rock.
XD TROLOLOLOLOLOL! Why this song~ Is it because "EVERY DAY I'M SHUFFLING"? Lol, lookie, theultimatechibifyier is here, so let's  shuffle~ I'm so honoured to have my personal anthem sung for me XD


7. Seventh (!) Song plays when the Order of the Phoenix arrives
Spice!-- Kagamine Len. 
Oh you shuffle list... Y U PICK ALL THE WEIRD SONGS? Ugh. Okay, so I'mma condense the meaning of "Spice!" into a few words: 


It's about a guy liking his sister but in order to kinda forget that love, he starts a harem. Then it ends with a vague ending that hints that...that...that... incest occurred.


... *inserts troll face* I do believe that the Order of the Phoenix is not a harem.

8. Eight song plays during the battle of hogwarts
Because Of You-- Kelly Clarkson.
No comment. Because of youuuuuuuuu~this war started, Harry, m'boy.


9. Ninth song plays when Voldemort dies (I shudder to think of the prospects of this song.)
Glad You Came-- The Wanted. 
... Yes, Harry m'boy, I am glad you came to kill off this nose-less fella. (BWAHAHAHAHA. Clarinet: The dark lord does not rely on such muggle indecisive--*gets killed*)
On the other hand, it's a really... ahemdirty/meaninglessahem song.


10. Tenth song plays over the end credits
Hirai Hirai--Hatsune Miku.

Aww. And hence. I shall insert this song over here for you to listen to :D
I'm such a nice person, eh?
If you haven't noticed, look at the picture at the top of this blog :D (below the title)

It's a really nice song and calming, apparently. I prefer the duet version of this sung with Len Kagamine and it's up to you to check it out.

CHECK IT OUT.

THE FANVIRUS WILL SEE TO IT THAT YOU WILL CHECK IT OUT.

Miku X Len :D

Miku X Len :D

Miku X Len <3

MIKU X LEN

MIKU X LEN

MIKU X LEN <3<3<3<3<3

Brainwashed?

Good :D (apparently, I has been brainwashed to this extent as well~)

Here's a warning: Do not click if you're allergic to Anti- Rin X Len :D 

Or if you're allergic to rabid fangirling and illogical reasoning :D

Cocktail

Just... trying something out for fun :D

Trollers gonna troll~

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Cocktail 

In synch we float

around the sticky, thick web of love

under swirling currents that melt and molt to form passion

do you not see--the scarlet deformity of jealousy

and thicket of lusting silk-- the epitome of desire

flickering and flashing,

desiring the thicket of silk and lusting

with jealousy--the deformed scarlet sight.

Passion melts and molts into swirling currents

that lie thickly over the loving--sticky--web,

which we float on in synch. 

Drawn for ES tooooo

Time used: a while
Satisfaction quota: ... 70%


More of happiness :D
I use the 'heart' shape so often... T.T

NYES :D
feel our burning passion :D

I've been wasting time away.
And I don't think this is productive... TAT

HOMEWORK!

Drawn for ES :D

I... am too overwhelmed with the love I have for my CCA :D
Here's another failed drawing. :D lalala~

NYES
Where literature comes alive~

It... depends on how you interpret the drawing though :D

I hearts you :D
Thanks for everything.

aargh--need to sleep nao.

Bloggery :D 15 May 2012

The tennis ball had a cookie and she was wondering what to do with it (what can you do with a cookie besides giving it to your truly?). AND I WAS EMOING IN THE DISTANCE BECAUSE I KNEW I'D NEVER GET THE COURAGE TO ASK HER FOR IT. TAT
ahhh...
my cookie.
TT^TT

So anyway.
Ellie made a bunch of statements that I don't understand. I mean, I like doughnuts (they are sweet and the bread is fluffy and the sprinkles *__*) especially CHOCOLATE ones! (OMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOM :3) And then she was saying about something long and then I wondered about Frenchbread (I've been listening to too much Teto : D Listen to Kasane Teto's "Kasane Territory"!) and then I didn't get the joke and Jerry and Ellie were both being mean and going "WE SHALL NOT TELL YOU" bwahahahaha.

There was choir concert! And I didn't know about it :O I wanted to go!
But no, because I has homework. and man, they didn't even tell us about it!
TT^TT

Enough tragic dramas today.

Love letters 1

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou.

if only it were this easy to say it out in real life.

stringed together in my bedroom are pictures of you and i. it's still there, awkwardly. even though we've been apart for ages, i can't help but stare lovingly at those memories. fond, old memories.

pictures that are carefully framed and decorated, i gaze at the smiling faces. they contradict the cold war we're having right now. gaze averted, constant twitching of eyes, the need to be away in another room. no apologies are spoken, even as they stir and bubble in my heart, throat, clawing at my delicate resolve be heard; to reverberate throughout the room for you.

pride, it holds us down. i trace your smile, the luscious lips that curve upwards in sheer delight. your eyes are sparkling, wide with euphoria. my arm slouches over your shoulders and we are together, happy and carefree. we are complete.

 how long have you not been like this?

your hair drapes over your shoulders, the sun gingerly picking out the rare red in your hair. the strands glitter coyly and loll around your fingers. look, even they are glinting with excitement. your face glows red, puffing out cheeks adorably. our fingers are intertwined, locked together. forever, forever, they echo sardonically.

singing. dancing. laughing. playing. working. holding hands tightly, sweetly, happily, closely.

 i see the snapshots and they run a loop in my head. i miss everything about you, the slight hesitation, the laughter that never ceases to amaze me and make my heart jump, poundpoundpound.

the ivory skin that drapes carelessly over mine and the endearing pout of your lips. and of course, the emerald eyes that sparkle with hope, faith and love. they pierce through every pounding fibre of me, till they reach my heart. sparks erupt and burn into the skies like a nebula, it makes me dizzy with pleasure. you have chained me up with enchantment, a casual flick of your wrist.

i am afraid to see the coldness in your eyes, hurt and betrayal embedded in them. your aloof attitude and curt remarks. they wash over me in waves of regret, just as your smiles have disappeared from existence. your pupils have narrowed into slits, as you build a barrier around yourself. your trust has snapped, splintered into many fragile pieces. i refuse to pick them up and plaster them back into well-being, looking away. wrecked. torn apart. destroyed, callously, painfully, mercilessly. irretrievable. lost.

i am afraid to look into those hollowed eyes once more.

but for now, i'll push away my fear, my hesitation, hurt and insecurities and just say how much i

lovelovelove you.

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The collection of love letters begins here!

This is just something I dug out. :D

Sigh, sigh, sigh. 

Ollie :D

Electric Angel~

I know I'm not that good at singing, but I'll do my best too.

It gives me a kinda hope that we'll be together forever.

Singing deep from the heart, expressing the words, attaching invisible memories within them...

Can you see them?

Like my friends, you have brought me hope, joy and songs to sing [not forgetting tears when I read the new emails written to me]. I was just so touched. 

With this innocent [maybe not so] little heart of mine, I'll dedicate another piece to all of you again, I'll try to reach the skies from the deep abyss of the sea.

I'm sure I'll do it. I'll sing it all out to you and assure you of my innocence that sparkles.

Somehow, despite knowing how life is cruel, there is something childish within me, the monster that rages tiny insignificant wars and grins with delight. It is reappearing again, and my will to prove that even we cannot stop ourselves.

I'll do it, and I'll touch you from the bottom of the pit I've sunken into. 

Because I love you.

I love you

The special three words, something so unique. However, it is always turned down by the pupils in my class. It does draw a certain amount of shock and the responses are always so predictable. When I yelled the words out to a very good friend, she immediately was taken aback and had both eyebrows raised. As I patted my 'granddaughter''s head and whispered the words out, she shrieked, "EEP!" and later said, "I'm not lesbian." When I smiled and spoke the words to my 'daughter', she scowled and replied, "I'm not lesbian."

It hurt to feel immediate rejection; love is just such a simple term, why should everyone immediately link that to relationships? Can't we love our parents, our kins, our friends? I suppose they just didn't understand. After all, those three words are to show how we admired or cherished the friends, weren't they? Sure, they could be romantically involved, but it just seems so weird to link those three words together with such things every single time.

Also, when I gave my friend a birthday hug, I could feel shock from another person. As I left, I could hear the birthday girl explaining, "It's just a hug." Why are we so isolated from the gestures used to express our friendship? Have we been too anti-social?

I love you, don't you?

Eww... I'm not--

Love can be used to express how you cherish someone. Don't you love your parents?

Yeah...

Nevermind.