I wish I could pirouette

no, not really.

I don't actually feel that way.
I mean, I tried dance, when I was really, really young and cute at that time.

And I sprained my ankle, which was a one-way ticket out of dance and to calligraphy.
I did quit calligraphy later on, just so I could sleep.

Abacus was boring, so I quit, too.

And piano.
It was hell, for me.

WSC training yesterday, and my aunt brought us all to watch a movie, hence I got back home at 2 AM.
Didn't get any work done, except more debate practice and trying not to look like a fool while my teammates (expert debaters) prepped me on what to say.

We didn't get to go and debate, but I'm sure that if I did, I would have died.

Research is lacking, as in, I'm dying for everything right now I just how do people manage their time so well.
My class' OM teams are in great condition, even with their hectic schedules.
And here I am, flooping to my death because.

Anyway, debate.
So, I've got no experience in it whatsoever but I'm just kinda happy about it. I don't know.
We've just got to act our way through it~

It's kinda good we've got extra help from our mentors, because I would just crumble if we didn't.
I've been first speaker for the last few sessions, and I think it's quite okay-- second speaker is just rebuttals rebuttals points, points, yay. Third speaker is probably hardest because you have to think as they debated on and on and you have to conclude everything to leave a strong impression on the judges woah. Yeah, but you get to go first if you're first speaker and you can't mess things up.

Mehhhh.

I should do Japanese right now.
Oh what was I thinking, blogging when I've got work.

PROCRASTINATION HAHAHAAHAHA no.

okay.
bai peasants.
I love you all.

Happy 2013!

It's a new year, isn't it?

One more year.

I don't know, I just don't feel like it's 2013. Maybe it's on the calendars, on my phone, the dashboard of my dad's car...
It's kinda uncomfortable, you know.

Time's flying past. Everything's changing.
I've definitely changed.

One year- one year of a different environment, different friends and pretty much everything's changed. I'm not sure if this new development's good or bad, you know. It's nothing like turning completely evil. I'm still pretty much kind-hearted (I guess) and I believe everyone's nice, no matter how much I might dislike the person at first sight.

I attended the 6E party - two years ago (technically, although it feels like 2012 to me, right now) late December, and now. I don't know. It seems meaningless, anyway. I mean, what do we do there- what do I do there? I'm just going to sit around and look awkward. It makes me lonely. It makes me feel vulnerable, in a sense. Being in a crowd of courteous, happy faces, yet never quite fitting in.

People are irritating, though. I guess.

Change is inevitable. Change comes.

Tomorrow's the first day of school, and I'll be helping out with the secondary one orientation. It's confusing and I doubt I'll get by the day without getting scolded. Anyway, I'll just do my best and try to enjoy- life's passing by so fast.

I look at Brig's profile picture on facebook, and I don't think I know her- it's like deja vu, all over again, except I know that I do know that girl. But the girl beside her... I took quite a bit to recognise her, even though I was still skeptical. Phaedra. I'm not sure what I expected, actually. Maybe when I was still twelve, just after graduation, I expected to remember them. I don't know, really. All these words, clumsy phrasing- I'm just tired. I'm so tired, I don't know why. I'll have to get hyper tomorrow, though! I'll be hypering around all those shy secondary ones, so!

...
Let's hope 2013 will be a nice year.

Mary, Mary, quite contrary.
I'm in a pool of self-hate, but I'm still happy and I'm excited yet exhausted.
And then there's BSE, so I'll be free to completely shut myself from the outside world, if I want.

I kinda want to go to RGPS' CNY next year. I don't know why.