they told you we could do anything and that we were strong. I think they were right.

I'm tired.
I really want to concentrate on writing a decent blog post but nah.

I really should write a decent blog post.
I don't know.
Sighpienigh bloob.

Oh I feel like such a coward. Why, why, why do you do this?

Today's the end of the school year.

Oh. My. Crap.

I don't know.

As I passed Rachel the graduation bear, I suddenly felt like there was something pulling me off the stage. And that they were all going to leave. And I, this lovely potato over here, am going to become a senior. To many other potatoes.

ugh.

And now, my reflections for the year.

The first thing I'm going to say is: I screwed almost everything up.

But here's a list.

• LSC 
• CCA
• Dramafest (even though I wasn't part of it...)
• My general school life.

LSC- Lifeskills Camp.

We were all new to the school and each other and by that time, I was pretty much sure that there were already cliques but the whole camp was extremely fun. Even though I screwed up some of the activities and dragged my classmates down with me, they didn't blame me. They didn't even mention it, only laughed it off and smiled. I was worried that it was just an act, because sometimes, people remember you for the strangest grudges.

But then I kinda realised that they were indeed forgiving and caring. When I slipped and almost fell, they were concerned, even though I had drastically reduced their chances of getting a prize for that activity.
I made friends quick enough, although I wasn't one of the more popular ones. I was cheerful and bubbly, rubbish coming out of my mouth- okay, I was pretty much sane the first few days. Sheeman was the first friend I kinda made, but she scared me because of her uncanny resemblance to another friend. It wasn't the looks, but more of the feeling/aura that she gave me. I was so desperate to try get another seat, but then it was the only seat left. So I had to sit next to her. And right in front of the teacher.

Back to LSC. It was interesting. Well, we had already kinda knew each other- okay, forgive my ever-deteriorating memory. So. We had a lot of fun, even during the performance. I was told that I was going out of beat, but I was only reacting to the music. Sigh, I really should try working out my coordination skills. Really.

And in the middle of the night, I heard kids giggling. Like, real kids. Not teenagers. And the scary thing was, Master Xueqi also heard it. She turned to me and I tried to pretend it was nothing but when I asked her, she said that she had heard it too. It was like some kind of amplified, airy kinda laugh. I'm still spooked. But I'm pretty sure it's the teachers. They probably played it to scare us to sleep. I don't know.

And the football interclass games. I loved it. A lot. Even though I was horrible at it and kicked the football out of court or let it in. We had fun. A lot of it. Sheeman found her talent in goalkeeping XD And we also learned that "Dancers can play soccer too!" --by our class team :D Jonana was extremely strategic, but she decided not to scare us with all the tatics. We just decided to go by this motto: When the ball gets near you, kick it away from your goalpost. The strikers or whoever in the middle field will take care of it.
I was defender, so it was relatively easy. :D We had a lot of fun screaming when the ball reached our side, but most of the time, it was on the other side of the field :D

CCA. English Language Publications Society- English Society.
I love my CCA. Everyone in it. My batchies and even the large population of sec3s and 4s. Even though the sec4s are leaving. But still. I've made quite a few friends in sec3, a batch which I always avoided because they were just so foreign. Even more than the sec4s.

I was at first, a little worried about my CCA. English Society. What did we do? Read books? That was very, very generic. And being a nerd didn't really sound very entertaining, with CCAs twice (it used to be once) a week for two hours each, all committed to reading books. It would be hard explaining to my parents.

I am in reading group. Sounds nerdy? Trust me, it's not that simple.

Well, true, we do read most of the time. But we're always doing discussions on texts and analysing of them. Reflections were introduced in the later part of CCA, but it was always a chore. Sometimes discussions were boring and nobody was enthusiastically participating, except perhaps a few sec2s or mostly sec1s. We also had the exhibitions, which I was excited about. Until I realised that no one really saw it. Perhaps a few, or a handful, but it seemed like no one was looking at them. Still, we kept trying and trying. I think the August one was the best. The October one... well, it was a pity. They were trying to 'keep to the budget' and hence, no boards. It was hardly an exhibition D:

I'm tireeeeed. D: continue more next post D: