extremely short update

I feel like something's died down inside me.

There's nothing- but so /much to do after eoys.

Going out, working, revising and learning and so many books to read
while all I want to do is just so sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep
and possibly never wake up but anyway

world war two is confusing, even when I'm only left with 100+ pages to the end of the book
I somewhat get the idea of it.

bomb
attack
ohnoes we are dying
bomb
bomb
overestimation
underestimation
city falls
town falls
uprisings
bombs
fight
fight
change of commanders
more deaths
bombers
bomb
bomb
city falls
people die
concentration camps
bomb

I'm a little bored, but I'm not taking in everything I'm supposed to take in
and there's still the poem
poem
Edgar Allen Poe's 'The Haunted Palace'
it's not really.
well- not very related to Halloween but still
the themes revolving around it and darkness
and the 'unspecified evil'- that sense of evil, it's rather
interesting
but the language is a little too.
advanced for me.
loon why are you so good at things i am envy
but anyway.
yinny has taught me the basics of basics for poetry analysis and I think I kinda know how to present my analysis, although I might want to suggest a more...
interesting- kinda- sketchy way to show how we analyse poems, although
it will be messy,
MESSY.

third lang results back.
I'm proud of myself, pretty happy.
Well. At least I passed.
And I think it's pretty well done because I'm
I'm like this thing
this potato thing
 at languages and I just floop.

Yeah.
It seems so boring now
I should start work.
but I don't want to summarise all the info for Edgar Allen Poe- I'm pretty sure that it's all in Google docs and
yeah.

I really don't feel like talking much.
It's a little tiring and all the words are stuck there in your head, your lips and you can't get them out.
I forgot 'stalemate' today
and it's kinda scary since I think about those terms, 'blunder', 'check', 'checkmate', 'blitz' (blitz is such a wonderful, wonderful word and it's in the book about WWII too), 'promotion', 'Casablanca', 'London defense' and lots of other stuff.

I'm horrible at chess, I forgot.
sorry.

and I ship potatoes and tomatoes.
It's so beautiful.
So.
Delicate and.
yeah.

I might read more during the holidays to make up for everything-
what if all my efforts go to waste?
what if I don't get As for everything?
what.
I tried
I tried so
hard.
I tried and
I can't bear to hear
hear.
or see
that.
I can't.

But at the same time, it's finally over. And what's done is done so I can't really do anything.

and there's this video by Vsauce about shadow and how you'd be less heavier in the dark than in the light.